Path. Where my passion lays? UPDATE

 

AUGUST 27TH

4 months ago I wasn’t sure about my future. But right now nothing really changed…But you know what they say nothing is set in stone. From September 1st I am going to start going back to school again…I feel like it’s a lot of steps back in my life…But it also seems that I have no other choice….which makes it even more sadder for me…Like a desperate little broken man… With a lot of uncertain hope and faith…

 

 

APRIL 6TH

It’s hard for me these days. Sometimes I think that I am just a traveler stuck in one of the stops of his life. And I am terrified that my next chapter of a journey won’t be happening anytime soon. I am terrified that I don’t know the path. I don’t know what I want to do with my life.  I have a few paths that could lean-to. But I am afraid that I am going to make a bad decision. And I know that we learn from mistakes but I don’t think I will be ever coming back from that. I don’t know it is just a feeling. It might not make much sense to anybody else but myself. But that’s how I feel. I heard a lot of comments from other people on what I should do with my life. And it’s not their choice it’s my choice but they still have a need to express themselves. Today one young lady said that she doesn’t understand me sometimes. Because my choices doesn’t make sense to her. And I remembered a phrase that I read somewhere that Taurus will never understand the Pisces. And I totally believe in that. Sometimes I wonder. When do real life begins? When we are in high school? When we have the first job? First love? But it is not about that right now. It’s about my path in life. I have this passion for a creative stuff. Like graphic design,well I just want to believe that I could be succesful. Or maybe I could choose hotels industry. It’s a hard choice. And I will have to make it soon.

To Love Somebody.

If I fall for you. I will never recover. I fall for you. I will never be the same. I know it is just a words from the song. But I really feel the same. But I really wanna love somebody. I am thinking about it every single day. I know one of those days she will be mine. But it looks so far away. And right now I don’t know what to do. Cause I really want to love somebody. People try to calm me down. Some people really do not deserve it. But they do find happiness in love. But how come? What did I harmed? Because I want to be loved too… Maybe I am destined to be alone? Sometimes that thought do cross my mind. But I don’t want to. I hope she will come to my life. She will be loved.